Sita Ram- Sing With Your Hands!
I was looking through one of my old journals with notes from many sound healing workshops I have taken. There are notes in here from workshops with Shri Shyamji Bhatnagar, Thomas Ashley-Farrand (Namadeva), Jai Uttal, Fabien Maman, and John Beaulieu plus some writing about some shamanic journeys with two Peruvian shaman. This journal, along with the one that follows it, probably contains the most important writing of my life. Interestingly it begins and ends with workshops I took with Shyamji.
I opened it to look up some notes from a workshop with Silvia Nakkach which I realize now is actually in the other one. I got sidetracked because I opened to a page that had the words to this lovely bhajan that Shyamji sang in a workshop one time and I wanted to find a melody to it. His tune was completely different than this one- so gentle, sweet and beautiful it had us all in tears. Unfortunately I don't think there is a recording of him singing it.
Sita Ram Sita Ram
Sita Ram Kahiye
Jahi Vidhi Rakhe Ram
Tahi Vidhi Rahiye
This is a photo from a page in my journal during one of Shyamji's workshops. It says, "Sita Ram Sita Ram Sita Ram." (To any Sanskrit scholars who may see this- I didn't realize that "Ram" had a long "A" when I wrote it. I think that's the only mistake?))
Sacred Sounds Revisited
| Katurah Robinson, dancer, & Fred Johnson, vocalist (International Bazaar?) |
The International Bazaar was a huge space that sold items from around the world- clothing, gifts, jewelry, instruments and also hosted wonderful community events and had a great network... Jacqueline put together an amazing event with so many incredible musicians and performers from all over Tampa Bay- African musicians, dancers and drummers, jazz musicians, belly dancers, poets and my dear friend and colleague, sound healer, musician, awesome vocalist and the best MC ever, Fred Johnson
Ha, I didn't know what was on here. There are three CD's- one is missing. I am listening to the second one, just checking it out- and suddenly I am hearing myself speak with gratitude to all the people who made this event happen, who believed in the center, who experienced the healing power of sound. And now Carol Mitchell kicking butt with her amazing voice... "Let your little light shine, shine, shine." A group of us, seven women singing together, Sacred Voices- me, Carol Mitchell, Cathy Costa, Sharon McCord, Robin Hill, Jennifer Samuel-Chance and Penny Heffelfinger. I miss my singing friends so much. I miss our weekly gatherings at the center and all the singing we did together in other venues, on our own, in churches, in mosques- wherever there was a sacred space and an opportunity to come together with our voices and our hearts.
| Sacred Voices- Katurah Robinson, Sharon McCord, Rosie Warburton, Robin Hill, Cathy Costa at Unitarian Universalist Church, Clearwater, FL Fundraiser for Haiti |
Late Night, Feeling Grateful
Once again, the day got away from me and i just looked at the clock and see that it is almost midnight. My daily blog challenge. Very busy couple of days. Woke up this a.m. to have the hutch of my dreams delivered to my house. Sounds silly... but at the age of 60 this is actually the first time that I have ever lived by myself without either my kids or a partner. Setting things up the way I want in a house that I love has been exciting for me- and in some ways scary... but all in all pretty wonderful.
The other supercool thing that I got to do tonight was to build a fire outdoors with my youngest son, Nicolas, and his son Jonah. The last time I built an outdoor fire was when Nic was 14 and we were camping out at Maggie Gulch outside of Durango, CO. I have pictures of us from that night. It was one of my best memories and now we did it again with Jonah, who is 13- not camping out but in my back yard. We didn't even have to go anywhere!
The pervasive awareness for me over the last 3 days goes back to what I was writing about a few days ago- the richness of life. This overwhelming sense of gratitude- and beyond that, gratitude for the opportunity and ability to experience gratitude. This is what the apparent experience of separation offers us. This is the gift.
Sacred Voices
Listened to a CD today that a small group of us recorded when I had my sound healing center in Florida- chants with flute, guitar and tamboura. There was a core group of us who used to get together every week and chant- we called ourselves Sacred Voices. Some of the voices changed from week to week but some were pretty constant. It was so nice to revisit that period of time and sing along with y old friends again.
I know there are more, a lot of recordings that need to be uploaded- concerts, small groups of us chanting together and Sound Journeys. Compiling it all is something to look forward to. It will be a good project. I need a computer tutor who can help me put it all together!
I wish I had some videos of us- but I do have videos of some of the sound healing sessions so tonight I will post one of those on here.
Sound Exploratorium
I have tried to upload it directly to here and that didn't work either.
I took a walk in the woods today and discovered the most wonderful underground stream that flowed under the rocks I was walking on. The sound was so magical, creating a resonance as it flowed under the rocks.
I took a video of the stream and wanted to post it here. The other thrill when I was walking was the sound of a bird that sounded so much like a human whistling that I was a little uncomfortable at first, wondering if someone was messing with me. I started imitating though and it just kept answering back and I could tell by that it was going from tree to tree by the change in direction of where the sound was coming from- unless there was actually a ventriloquist hiding in the woods who had the ability to throw his voice!
The Richness of Life
Eating My Humble Pie
Today I had to face the music and accept responsibility for offending some very lovely ladies. My bad, for sure... I said something in a previous post in reference to Woonsocket, RI that came across as disparaging so I really must apologize for that. It was all said in jest but who would know that unless they knew me? The truth is I know absolutely nothing about Woonsocket other than having had a very wonderful experience there last Friday night! I went there once about 30 years ago and sat in the car while my best friend ran into her dad's office on some kind of errand and we left. Seriously, that was the extent of my experience there. We left and probably got something to eat in Providence because there was nowhere to eat.
Probably the worst part of it is that I had an awareness that my reference to Woonsocket in aforementioned post (I'm not going to quote because now I am really quite embarrassed- one blunder was enough) might have sounded a little snarky but in some pitiful way I thought I was being cute and funny. Not.
Dear ladies from the dojo- please forgive me. Seriously. I had such a wonderful time doing the sound journey and meeting you all. It was my pleasure as much as yours and then to have caused displeasure afterwards because some of you were nice enough and interested enough to check out my blog? Ugh. I am truly sorry.
That was the longest time I have spent in Woonsocket- I arrived at about 3:30, spent 2 hours setting up my instruments, an hour doing the sound journey, a good while afterward chatting with some of you and hearing of some of your experiences and another hour packing up... And every minute of it was a pleasure!!! That is the truth. I loved the space. I loved you all. Lisa Votta is awesome! Christina Rondeau is clearly awesome because she has this incredibly cool space in which she allows fabulous things to happen and I do hope you will invite me back. Because seriously? I would come back any day of the week! And if this kind of cool stuff is happening in Woonsocket- well, it must be a pretty cool place.
Okay, so that's done. But there is more for the rest of you who are reading this by way of some other avenue- maybe you are one of my Your Turn Challenge friends, a personal friend or someone who came across this because you are interested in sound healing. Well, I'm going to do a little rave here.
As soon as Lisa Votta, owner of Ananta Jyoti Yoga, contacted me I knew this was going to be a great connection and a really fun event. I love what I do but Lisa's energy, her interest, her openness, her curiosity and her enthusiasm got me even more excited than I already am when I have an event coming up. That feeling continued and expanded when we actually met on the day of the Sound Journey. I know that she worked hard to pull a good group together and make it worth my time and effort and that means a lot. I could see how devoted she is to her group of ladies there and I have no doubt that she is also a really great teacher because all of those qualities that I mentioned are what it takes to connect with a group of students and keep them coming back.
She also did a lot to make the space so beautiful!!! I couldn't get over it. All four walls are mirrored in the martial arts studio which was really cool, but then Lisa brought in a ton of flameless candles and the space just seemed infinite- it really was magical. Yes, there was still some equipment in the room but it did not matter at all or detract from the overall feeling in any way.
So- it was a beautiful night. Maybe tonight while I'm going to sleep I'll listen to the recording and see how it sounded on the receiving end.
Musical Notes
Some of the musical notes I have been reviewing in my mind today:
- The fact that sound/music strengthens the body. I have been putting this into practice the last week or so since I read that and posted on this subject. When I feel a little edgy or when I am too much in my head I either put on some music, pick up the guitar or play one of the singing bowls to restore my equanimity.
- An invitation to do a sound journey and possibly play music at the Unity Church in (or near?) Carlisle, PA by someone who experienced my work over ten years ago in St. Petersburg, FL. I did a Healing Sound Journey and played during the devotional service at the College of Metaphysical Studies in Clearwater.
- That has led me to looking at the possibility of setting up a series of Sound Journeys and workshops in the northeast since I may be doing a road trip with my instruments anyway.
- Reviewing last Friday's Healing Sound Journey in Woonsocket with a group of ladies who I think were mostly new to yoga and definitely new to sound healing. Many of them had pretty extraordinary experiences. I played for about an hour and many of them said it seemed like no time at all. They were shocked when I told them how long it had been. I think this is because when you drop into the present and everything else falls away, there is no time.
- One woman said that she had a very sexual experience. She shared with me that she as she had gotten older she was feeling less attractive and very "unsexy". She said that during the sound journey she reconnected with her femininity and it totally shifted her relationship to herself.
- Loving playing my new guitar and exploring new sounds on it, making up chords and playing with different rhythms.
- Chanting, chanting, chanting. Next week I am leading a kirtan at my friend Kerstin's yoga and art studio. So looking forward to it. Today on my way to yoga class I was chanting intensely and drove right by the house where I do yoga. Realized it a couple of blocks past my destination.
- Playing with brain tuners- using them for concentration, relaxation and deep meditation. I have been sleeping really well lately so I haven't needed them for that!
- Thinking a lot about the upcoming workshop in Holland. A little nervous and also very excited. Still contemplating the process and what it will all look like- how much I want to plan and how much I want let unfold organically. Sometimes when I get to hung up on the structure it doesn't go as well. So I am searching for the balance in that process.
- I have Tibetan bowls all over my living room floor! Tomorrow that will change and they will go back in the sound healing room. I was contemplating what ones I want to bring to Holland so I got them all out.
- Still thinking about the amazing concert last night with Bela Fleck and Abigail Washburn. That will be something to hold on to for a while!
Exhilarating Banjo!
One of the things that fascinated me was when Bela Fleck played solo, which he did a couple of times, I went into trance. It was surprising to me because the banjo is such energetic music, so I became somewhat analytical after it happened two separate times. Both times he played very long improvisational solo pieces. I wasn't tired and I did not fall asleep. I just "went away" for a while. Two things I believe came into play. One was that my left brain totally shut down and two, there is a powerful entraining rhythm with the banjo, and I think the combination just put me out.
Abigail Washburn was amazing! Her voice is haunting in contrast to her very down to earth presence. They both have different styles of banjo playing which complement each other beautifully. She does more of the "clawhammer" style while he does more of the finger picking. Her playing was phenomenal but the real mind blower was when she sang a song in Chinese. (Apparently at one time she was in China studying Szechuan.) I think the video below is fairly old but if you don't feel like watching the whole thing just fast forward up to 12:22 and she sings the song she sang tonight Her voice is so powerful in this piece. The whole thing just knocked me out.
Top 10 Blind Audition Performances - The Voice USA 2015 Part 2
Wow- I am starving! I could not pull myself away from this! Watch it through to the end- they are all great (okay, so I wasn't crazy about the country western guy in the beginning but that's cause I just don't like that music... unless it's kd laing or the Cowboy Junkies) but the last guy is phenomenal. I was moved to tears by a couple of them. The last one didn't make me cry. I was just totally exhilarated. Now I can eat.
Loving Life!
This morning I had a really great meeting with my therapist. We had a long talk about fear as I have been very much aware of the physical dynamics of it running through my body in the last week- noticing the places where it comes up and my relationship to it.
Then, earlier this evening, I had the great fortune of giving a Healing Sound Journey to a group of wonderful ladies who all do yoga together in Woonsocket, Rhode Island. It was in a martial arts studio which is always an interesting vibe, but it was great and the space was transformed with all of the instruments, many mirrors and a zillion little flameless candles that the yoga teacher had brought! They loved it. It was all very new to pretty much all of them and many of them had profound experiences.
There are always interesting discoveries for me in the process of a sound journey. Tonight it was the discovery of the relationship between two bowls right at the end of the sound journey- a crystal bowl and a Tibetan bowl. When I played them together there was a binaural beat that occurred- that was not unusual in itself- but the sound of it was unlike any I had ever heard before. At first I didn't recognize that it was coming from the bowl because it was so deep and so subtle- this very quiet deep pulse that actually sounded like some sort of an engine or something! After a few times though I could distinctly hear that it occurred every time I hit the Tibetan bowl after playing one particular crystal bowl. I ended the sound journey with those two tones. I recorded the whole sound journey so it will be really interesting to play it back and see if the recorder (my iPhone!) picked it up the beat frequency between the two instruments.
So, tonight I am feeling happy and grateful and am wearing a big smile on my face!
Randomness and Synchronicity
Healing Sound Journeys- How They Came To Be
Sound Journey in an old church in Cape Cod, MA
This Friday (day after tomorrow) I am doing a Healing Sound Journey at a martial arts studio in Woonsocket. (For more information click here.) I have connected with a woman who teaches yoga there- Lisa Votta- and shares all kinds of holistic, inspiring and educational things that I am interested in on her Twitter page! AND she found ME via Google, which makes me happy, and there is a group of yoga students there who are excited about my coming up there to teach a sound journey. I am definitely looking forward to this event!
As I am thinking about the sound journey, I thought it might be fun to share a little bit about the Healing Sound Journeys and post some pictures from sound journeys past.
Genie's Hookah Lounge, Newport, RI
In 1995 I began teaching sound healing workshops and found it to be most helpful for people to experience the effect of various instruments first, before discussing their effect. One could talk forever about how Himalayan singing bowls balance the right and left hemispheres of the brain and entrain the brain waves to a theta range, inducing a natural and effortless state of meditation (sahaj dhyan) but that will never give you the experience. I began opening my workshops with a short meditation on the various instruments that I had begun collecting- flutes, a small gong, a Tibetan bowl, a drum, rainstick, didgeridoo, an instrumental tamboura, a shaker- a very humble collection of instruments! I also used my voice, doing toning, overtone chanting and mantras.
High Rise, Rochester, VT
The meditation usually lasted about 15 minutes. The responses from participants were typically that they lost all sense of time and place, and that it was too short- an interesting dichotomy! As time went on, I began collecting more instruments and also realized that the effects of this short meditation were often profound so I began to extend the time. I offered a 6-week meditation called Sound Journeys, realizing that the participants were literally traveling on the sound frequencies and that each instrument had its own powerful effect and that they were all dramatically different. So one week I would use a singing bowl, another week the didgeridoo, another week my voice, and so on. This was an amazing period of exploration and learning for me as well as those who attended.
Private home, Ridgefield, CT
As time went by the sound journeys began to develop a life of their own. People were having spontaneous healings- they took people much deeper than a meditation, with no effort at all on their part. All they had to do was lie down and the sound did the rest! Participants would come back with all kinds of stories of places they had been, colors they saw, loved ones who visited with them, physical healing, and sometimes an ability afterward to meditate on their own when before they'd had great difficulty.They spontaneously began to integrate the background sounds in their environment as a tool for meditation- in other words, the sound journey actually transformed the way they listened, heard and related to sound.
The sound journeys became Healing Sound Journeys. When I met my partner of 14 years, Henry Steffes, a musician who immediately saw the benefits of sound as a healing tool, we began doing Healing Sound Journeys together. We traveled around the United States and Canada, performing them in yoga studios, meditation centers and private homes. In 2005 I opened a sound healing center in St. Petersburg, FL and for the next 7 years I did a sound journey there every Monday night as well as in many other studios in the area and in other parts of the country as well.
(Tibetan bowl healing demo) Los Gatos, CA
In 2012, I moved back up to Rhode Island and have been offering Healing Sound Journeys in yoga studios and private homes up here as well as in Europe, with the occasional trip to Florida and California thrown in there as well.
For the past 3 years I have been recording all my sound journeys but unfortunately do not yet know how to upload them onto my blog- so sorry! I know that a picture is worth a thousand words. In this case a sound byte would be worth a thousand pictures but we'll have to wait on that and go with the pictures for now. Or you can come to one of my Healing Sound Journeys!
Saltana Salt Cave, Ridgefield, CT
Zettmar Studio, Newport, RI
Zettmar Studio, Newport, RI
Sound Journey Concert w/ Laraaji Naradananda, Temple of the Living God, St. Pete, FL
Sound Body Wholistic Health Center, St. Petersburg, FL
Women's Well, Portsmouth, RI
Sound Journey with orbs! Villari's Martial Arts Studio, Middletown, RI
Yoga Center of Newburyport, MA
Yoga Center of Newburyport, MA
Private home, Ridgefield, CT
First Unity Church With Alex Grey, St. Petersburg, FL
First Unity Church, St. Petersburg, FL
The Longhouse, Gulfport, FL- w/ Henry Steffes, Jr
Private home, Clearwater, FL
Recording Studio, St. Pete, FL w/ Henry Steffes, Jr
Healing Touch Wellness Center, Land O' Lakes, FL
Yoga Center of Newburyport, MA
Bright light after a Healing Sound Journey in Ridgefield, CT!
Don't Worry, Be Happy
Someone has hijacked my computer network. Thought I got it all fixed this afternoon to the tune of $350 but tonight there are about 50 more emails that have been sent from my email address that I did not send.
And now, back to Bobby McFerrin...
The Redemptive Power of Music
In the end, what is really so striking about this- not just his singing which is pretty amazing, not just the song which always touches the deepest recesses of the heart- but the response of the listeners... the look on their faces, so moved by his singing.
The other day I quoted from The Life Energy in Music by John Diamond how kinesiology (muscle-testing) has shown that music makes the body strong. This will definitely do that!
Living the Dream
There is a diagonal pathway running through it- the journey of my life- which I was unaware of until after I had finished. It starts in the lower left-hand corner and represents the physical life and says "Walking the Earth Path." In the center of the picture is the representation of my essence, my true self. The words are "Journey to the Self." From there it travels to the upper right-hand section which represents God and Spirit. The words are "Journey to the Heart of God".
The most amazing piece is the hidden poem- just words, pasted on the board- a series of phrases that didn't reveal themselves to me as a whole until after I had completed the collage.
The Life Energy in Music
| Image courtesy of freedigitalphotos.net |
"I know now that my playing has the capacity to physically strengthen people. And there are moments when I am aware that the audience and I are breathing together, that I am simply the prism through which all of this flows. The biological imperative of rhythmic pulse and expansion of musical motifs has replaced studied effects...."
In regard to his work with John Diamond, which was a revelation in his life and work, he says:
"...the old ice-bound rivulets of scattered musical life have come together and channeled into a broad, expansive river. The water is fresher, the light iridescent, the current steady even through some rapids. As I go on and with this flow, music is no longer just a profession, it is an instrument of my aspiration."
I can't wait to read the rest of the book. Last sentence on the first page by John Diamond, "Of all the physical modalities, music most activates the life energy and uplifts the soul. Only pure love can do more."
Vibroacoustically Yours
Vibroacoustic sound therapy affects the bioenergetic system on all levels. Intention can be a huge factor as well. The sound is delivered to the body not just through the ears but also (and primarily) through skin and bone conduction (tissue conduction). Given that the body is composed of 60-70% water, which is one of the best conductors of sound, there is a powerful somatic response. I have facilitated and observed hundreds of vibroacoustic sound healing sessions and the first response typically happens within 45- 90 seconds. The body of the person on the table seems to suddenly sink in as they let go and relax effortlessly. Remember, the music is literally massaging every cell in the body so this goes much deeper than physical touch.
Physical touch is a powerful complement to this therapy however. When the first wave of sound hits it can potentially be disconcerting or disorienting especially for someone who has never experienced it before. When the therapist and client together are joined in an intention, the work is that much more powerful and a light touch may be all that is needed to reassure the person on the table that they are in a safe space. There is also a synergistic blend of sound and energy that occurs with hands-on work that enhances and deepens the whole experience.
I have been feeling distracted by technology lately- too much time on the computer and the phone. I find it compelling and somewhat addictive but not always pleasant. Meanwhile I have so many tools at my fingertips that I can use to create more peace in my life and have been asking myself lately why I do not use them more. Today I decided when I got home, before I did anything else, to just lie down on the sound table for a while. What a shift! My mind feels more clear, more focused and on some level less frantic, although I don't think of myself as frantic.
I feel like now I can sit and just enjoy being, instead of doing, doing, doing and chasing after the instant gratification of the technology I have at my fingertips.
Diverging Directions (All Roads Lead Home)
One: Still enjoying the energy of the gathering of sweet friends here last week.
Two: My brother came by my house last night and gave me a beautiful new guitar that plays so sweetly. I feel like we have been friends forever and she is inspiring me to play better and try new things that I have never done before.
Three: Yesterday I wrote up the outline for my weekend workshop in Holland that I will be teaching on May 8-9. The course is Sound Healing for Balance and Joy. The realization for me was the same tools that will first serve by restoring balance are also the tools that will bring you joy- not the tools themselves but the effect of their use.
Brain Tuners
βThe opposite of love is fear, but what is all-encompassing can have no opposite.β
| Holland- 2012 |